Monday, February 19, 2007

lost...

How does one gets over heartbreaks?
How does one become whole again?

It's only been a week since I broke up with my boyfriend, but it feels ages, yet the pain fresh. How weird! I don't really know how I should be, how I should act. Sometimes I feel so lost, sometimes all I can do is just sit down and think about the times we spent together, and it makes me miss him so much. Deep down I know that is not the right thing to do, but that is the only thing that I seem to be so good in doing at the moment. Argh, what a mess!

*sobs*

Friday, February 09, 2007

emotionally insane

maybe i am, maybe i really am illogical and out of my mind. maybe i'm demanding, maybe i'm such a horrible person who is so dictative, maybe i am so emotional that i can't seperate what is urgent and not urgent. the list can just go on but i am JUST TOO emotional to write!

Saturday, February 03, 2007

Your Honour...

I hope it never comes to that, but it might be possible. Our "gracious" landlady has refused to negociate even a bit, and has "suggested" that we talk to her lawyer. Well, the school is going to do that, if our lawyer tells us that we have a strong case (meeting scheduled for the 7th). For all ye law students out there, this is a chance to follow a potential court case on tenant law in Japan...

On the other hand, things have started to perk up, after I've hit rock bottom I can't go anymore lower than that. I've found a new place to move into, and will officially move on the 10th. My exams are almost done, only Hebrew to go! So happy that I'm done with my social survey pratical class, Arabic, Italian and French! Dear Lord, what was I thinking? And I most probably need to do German too next term... oh yes, I'm going home in two weeks' time, CNY here I come! Started job-hunting too, in and out of Japan. Got to be frank, if I can work in Europe, I might just do it since Japan is really not my favourite place to be at the moment. (Yes coming from me it must be quite shocking but people change, end of story.)

Well, that's the update for now. Not really up for elaborating. Things are going well, but I must say my mental and emotional health has taken quite a tumble that I've gone quite weepy lately. urgh... From handyman Jo to weepy Jo. What is this world coming to?!

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Unexpected behaviour from a Japanese

Q: "What do you think of the Japanese people?"
A: "They are the kindest, politest, generous people I've ever known."

That was my answer each time someone asks me that, and it would have remained the same, if not for some troubles that have surfaced over the past 4 months. It all began in September, when heavy rain led to leakage in one corner of my roomie's bedroom. Quickly she contacted the real estate agent (in Japan you never have direct contact with the landlord), who promised to get the problem fixed asap. Due to the hot and wet weather, and to no sunlight into that corner, the walls and floor started to fall apart, with mould and mushrooms(yes you've read it right!) growing out of the wet wood!

Shocked at such turn of events, my roomie pestered the agent to contact the landlady over and over again, but to no avail, getting only the same replied from the landlady, who told us that she had already contacted the contractors and they will be coming. Sick and tired of the lack of activity, sincerity and everything else, we brought the case to the attention of our university, who acted as our guarantor when we signed the contract. The school quickly got into action, and in the space of less than a week, workers came to check out the situation. During that time, our dear landlady came knocking on our door, and I was the unlucky one who happened to be in at that time, yelled at me for being impatient (after 2 months that witch!), inconsiderate and for complaining so much!

The workers repaired? filled up? some holes, and things seemed to have been solved, altough the promise of cleaning and sanitarising my roomie's room has yet to be carried out (until today). Happy that we made progress, we left for Christmas break with a light heart. However, the weather god has refused to be kind to us, or perhaps, wanted us to know the truth. Coming back after a month, we found her room in a state worst than before!

That was the last straw and my roomie decided to move out (without caring whether the problem could be fixed, nor my feelings). We (she) handed in notice last Sat and this is where our real battle begins. Being so busy as we already are (it's the end of term), we will have to juggle school and apartment hunting, figure out how we're going to get the money to move, and start a whole negotiating process with the landlady to get our money back. Things are just going to get uglier and uglier...

On a different side, I found out that the landlady has refused the real estate agent to contact any contractors to fixed the problem (which would have solved the problem thoroughly back in September), for she has a contractor friend whom she contracts with. I don't really care who does it, as long as it is fixed in a week, but it is not possible for she is apparently not interested and doing so and tries to put us off by telling us that she's going to fix it... which was and is a big lie, for she only contacted the workers when the school got into the picture.

Such behaviour is unacceptable, regardless which country/nationality etc. Her actions has made us lost faith and trust in the Japanese people. We cannot help but question the thinking and the morality of her actions, which can only been seen as selfish and uncaring. Perhaps she felt that since we were foreigners, we will not be able to do much on our own. This is where is she is wrong. Precisely because we are foreigners, we are not afraid to voice out our opinions, our thoughts, and we are not submissive! Such behaviour is totally unforgivable and I hope that she will be well punished for what she did.

Friday, January 12, 2007

City of Lights to the Land of the Sun

In a swift of smooth velocity, I gained 8hrs and found warm bright sunlight when I opened my eyes.

Perhaps you're wandering what I'm talking about, perhaps you already know, if you've been keeping tabs on the ever so mobile me (I've not found any GPS transmitter on me yet but I'll keep an eye opened for it just in case...).

Travelling in Dec/Jan season is never a good time I fear. Must be the year end buzz, for those planes just never take off nor land on schedule no more. Tension is high with all the long lines at the check-in counters, passport control and security check. Many people had to repack their suitcases to the allowed weight limit. The girl at the counter made me removed 3kgs from my bag as well. Thank God I had an empty bag at hand. CDG must have really tightened up on their security measures as well. As I was waiting in line at passport control/security check, out came 3 policemen: one walking ahead, one leading a passenger with his hands cuffed behind towards the exit, and one pulling the suspect's check-in suitcase(It seems that all check-in bags go through security AFTER the check-in procedure, hence from the
tag attached one can tell immediately). I wonder what the man had in his bag that warranted his arrest, but it obviously didn't please airport security.

Everything went smooth flowing after security check, although the late departure didn't go too well with my pangs of hunger for lunch... lol... But soon we were on air, and then lunch! (^_^) It was a pleasant flight, with me attacking the food while being absorbed with The Da Vinci Code in French(I snatched my friend's copy) at the same time. I think I shall give Angels and Demons a try in Italian next...
4 hours later, we landed and applause broke out...!

Moscow International Airport is one word: tiny. The "world's best duty free shops" are found in little corners of the corridors between the gates. Duty free products are quoted in Euros, while anything else is all in Rubbles. I heard that Russian chocs are quite the thing to pick up from Russia, so I bagged two boxes.... FInally, the last leg of my journey is about to begin. Hoping for at least some movies to cure my boredom, to my dismay the inflight system was not working! If not for
the book and my Ipod, I would have just cried myself to sleep, but that wouldn't have worked for the kind granny like Russian lady (on her way to Sydney via Tokyo) would have tried her very best to comfort me in... only Russian. I wished hard during the 9hr long flight that my Russian friend Alyona was beside me to translate instead of me trying to communicate in sign language! What a sight we were, the 2 people (an American as well) sitting by her side.

We finally got into Narita around 11ish. Applause. The plane couldn't park for 15mins so we were nicely tucked away in a big fat bird. But everything cleared up and I finally got out of the airport around 12. My bags took forever to come out!! Oh, one big thing I've got to clarify, TOKYO is not NARITA, NARITA is not TOKYO. Narita Airport is in CHIBA, a different prefecture altogether, making Tokyo city at
least an hour away by the fastest train!

All say and done, I got myself in one piece back to my place around 2pm. Of course the whole procedure of unpacking, laundry, sorting out the pile of mail (one month's worth!!) etc and here I end up, writing such a long piece (the longest ever on my blog).

All's well ends well. Applause.

ps. Some of you might have gotten this on your emails.

Saturday, December 30, 2006

bye bye 2006...

It was Christmas just a few days ago... and now New Year's Eve is about to loom up... Has everyone succeeded in achieving their resolutions yet, or shall that be brought forward? I think I gave up on doing resolutions for some time now. Just take each day as it comes, as long as there is a clear goal at the end ^_^ (which for me, after 365days, I'll be lucky that I actually remember it....)

Moving on! It's been cold here!! Gone is the sun that was here I arrived. Ever since Christmas kicked in, the weather has been gray, gray, gray.. It finally rained, and will continue doing so for another 5 days?!?!?!??! *sigh*

Oh well, that aside, it is the end of the year, so I wish you all a Happy 2007, and let's party when I get back!

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Christmas in Paris

Greetings from Paris!!!

Christmas is a magical time. The decorations on the streets, the crazy shoppers doing their last minuite Christmas shopping, all the feeling of love in the air as Christmas songs blares through loud speakers to warm the pedestrians up. Excellent!

I celebrated Christmas together with my birthday, so typical ^_^! Mo and I went to a really nice French restaurant called Kong (a little bit Jap fusioned, food and decor wise). I had foie gras, it was really good, for a first time trying something! Didn't cut any cake, but since I brought back "il panettone"(the Italian Christmas cake from Italy) when I visited Marc on a whirlwind trip just before Christmas, so we probably will try it tonight.

I've been having a nice holiday so far, apart from the cold weather. It hasn't been sunny since the last few days so there's a kind of depressing feel in the air. That's the problem with places up north. Italy is ok, lots of sun during the day!! But I am enjoying myself, between studying and rechecking out the places that I know.

Going to spend the next few days doing studying, and probably hang out with a group of people for new year's. Will also be trying to meet up with the French friends that I made while I was in Japan. The wonders of globalisation! lolz...

Oh well, Christmas shoutouts to all! Have a great one wherever you are.

Friday, December 15, 2006

City of Lights

After clocking 15hrs of flight time, finally I arrived in one piece in Paris. What a long day it was! Late departure from Narita, late arrival plus late departure in Moscow! Of course we arrived late in Paris, I realised that Aeroflot tends to keep its flight hours and not the flight arrival/departure times. hmm... Service and food wise was ok, although I ended up watching Harry Potter:Globet of Fire in Russian as there was neither English or Japanese!!! Unfortunately, I can still only say yes and no, after 3hrs of it!! *sigh*

Paris is not as cold as I expected. Very similar to Tokyo, although it has been shining since I've arrived (hehe) and it is much more foggy at night. At this rate I won't really need heavy duty winter stuff, which is good for me, meaning that I don't have to go shopping and max my card... *lucky*

Alrights, this sounds weird but I've got to get down to do some studying now so that I can have some fun during the weekend! YES, there's always homework, regardless when and where... sigh...

Monday, December 11, 2006

dec 11th

2 more days ~~ 2 more days ~~
lolz...

ok, the next two days are going to be so so crazy! Usual Monday at the Centre, and then, a quick stop at uni to get some work done before my part-time job in the evening. I really do wish that my ticket was on Thursday instead, I really could do with the extra day to get my work done... Why is it that winter vacation is always packed with homework? This is one Christmas gift that I do not want!!!!!!!

I had a good weekend, although I was extremely tired due to a hectic week, waking up at 7am 3 days in a row and working until 10pm everyday... It's amazing that I am still in one piece! Although mentally I've been hit by the depression bug since Sat, no idea why.

Ohh, I had a Christmas/Birthday party on Friday night! Was really worried that no one was going to show up (it almost ended up being a nice candlelit romantic dinner with myself, trust me!), but people started trickling in after 8pm so it was all good. I made my usual nasi lemak (nothing like M'sian food!!) and my famous cheesecake ^_^. Friends brought salad, snacks and drinks. We had a lot of rum in us, cause yours truly spiked both the cheesecake and the fruit punch (in public)! The Christmas and jazz music was a great help to the atmosphere. It was loads fun!! For those who couldn't make it, maybe next year? Hey, we could do a New Year's Party *hint hint*

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

15th Noma Concours

After more than two months of volunteering in ACCU (Asia/Pacific Cultural Centre for UNESCO), I FINALLY had the sense to link the website (in Japanese and English) to you all and let you guys get a sense of what kind of work I do. Check out the link section on the right panel!

And also announcing the 15th Noma Concours for Picture Book Illustrations!! It's a biannual competition organised by ACCU for the promotion of artworks etc from Asia, the Pacific, Latin America, Africa and the Arab states. The selection, which will be held over two days, begins today at 1300hrs Japan time. Since I'm also working on this project, it's so exciting to see all the beautiful and touching illustrations that came from all around the world. If you are interested, check it out at http://www.accu.or.jp/en/culture/cul02.shtml (English link), where you can also find previous winning works online. So check it out when you have the time!

Good luck to all the 400 odd contestants, a new record!!

Saturday, December 02, 2006

Forgetfulness

There are many kinds of forgetfulness in this world. Most of them is personal, so whatever we forget, it ends up affecting ourselves. However, there is another kind, the one that imposes trouble on others without creating any for the culprit.

Why am I suddenly talking about this at 2am in the morning? Because I am pissed at my housemate who for the 100th time has forgetten to turn off the darn lights that, because of my glass room doors, jolly well reflect into my room! It is beyond funny when I end being woken up by lights flooding my room, only to find out that it is her bloody fault that I don't get a straight 8hr sleep. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! For this time, she left the lights on and went to bed without any care, and wonderfully waking me up. Maybe I should make her pay the electricity bill, since I tend to come home to lights left on in the toilet, her bedroom etc. GRRRRRRR... I feel like yelling....... can't wait to get out of all this stupid stress that isn't even because of me!!

Friday, December 01, 2006

December

YES! IT is finally December... 13 days before I go to Paris, 22 days to winter break, 25 days to Christmas, 26days to AHEM day... lolz... 31days to the end of 2006.

What a year, 11 months in flash. I had so much fun, and am still having fun. Winter sem has been tough so far, and I had to do all my presentations and reports before I leave. But it was worth it, it meant less work during winter vacation, although the lecturers must have caught wind of my thoughts, for two new reports have popped up... *sigh* So I guess I'll be spending my days in Paris writing reports, just like summer!! *sob*

By the way, December also marks the beginning of SALES, SOLDES... for Autumn stuff, and some winter (probably last year's batch) stuff. Who cares... I can't wait to go shopping, can't believe I held myself back so long (hooray for self-control!!). Uniqlo (the Gap of Japan) is having a special one week sale, got myself a nice down jacket ^_^ ah.... oh... Shiseido is gonna give me a birthday present, yeah!! Don't you just love the membership stuff they have over here, all the points and rewards. Life is good!~!~!~!

Happy J

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Firing students

Yes, you've read it right!

The phrase came from my dad, actually. He was concerned that I didn't enjoy teaching one of my students, so one day, he suddenly asked me "Have you fired your student yet?" Funny, isn't it? ^_^

I am glad to say that I am no longer teaching Baito-kun(a nickname my friends and I came up for him. "Baito" means "part time" in Jap, and "Kun" is just a way of addressing a guy, like "san" for example), and I can say that there's no love loss in this case. No big loss when it comes to money too, he was such a "kecchi" (miser) person and he dared think that just because he was paying, he could order me around like I'm his personal slave or something. Typical Jap guy (or the steoreotype ones, perhaps I should say), who doesn't know how to treat the opposite sex well. No wonder gender studies in Japan is becoming more and more popular.

Anyways, moral of the story is that one has a right to even fire students, if said student(s) is(are) not interested in learning. hohoho

Sunday, November 26, 2006

Christmas plans

Hello!!

Wow, time flies. It's already the end of November. I think I should get started for the end of year speech... might take me a while ^_~

So people, what's up for Christmas? I know that some of you are heading home, wish I was too, but I'm gonna go off to Paris instead, even better, although am sorries that I will be missing so many of you.... *sob*
YY, should I come visit you this time? Keep me posted!

As for everyone else, just to remind you that I start my final year next April. IF you want to come visit me, better do it before I leave here....

Monday, November 20, 2006

rainy days and mondays always make me cry~~~

Hands up those who know the Carpenters. Ah, the days of childhood. Somehow, this song got stuck in my head today, and how fitting it is to reality! It's a Monday, and it was raining in the morning, a token from yesterday's shower. On top of it, been feeling kinda depressed lately, due to various reasons (so far I've gotten different possible reasons from other people ^_^) I say it's the weather, and that I'm overworked but underpaid, and that I want a change of air, sort out my life, and decide what to do for my future. So yeah, lots of heavy stuff going around, and the people who are supposed to be there are never there. Me is disappointed, to the max. Dunno if I should laugh, shrugh it off, cry, be upset, or be angry. I guess any adjectives work depending on my mood of the day. Any votes to cast?

Another 13mins and I will get off work. Gotta rush back to school to do a bit of Noh and then, have an English class with my horrible student. I just wanna go home and sleep, but still got homework waiting for me. Just found out that I used the wrong data for my research class, now I've gotta redo everything by tomorrow noon for I'm up for a mid-term presentation that very day!! grr...

irritated me

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

London #3


With Nisha in Oxford Street... after a day of shopping ^_~



Sherlock Holmes museum!!!!!!!!!!! 221b Baker street (it's true!!)

London #2





Photos from Madame Tussauds......Good looking guys and girls... the stars!

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

1st rejection

3rd year students have it hard over here. We spend two sem getting all the credits we need so that one can devote oneself to writing the graduation paper during the 4th year. However, one is also required to spend the 3rd year either job-hunting, or preparing for grad school.

I am still so uncertain whether I want to work or continue studying. I'm already behind the official job hunting schedule, cos over here, they hire by bulk a year in advance, for everyone enters the company in April only on the year we graduate. Weird system I know. Anyways, I am so so lost that I even have trouble with internship applications. Just got my 1st rejection today *sob sob*

This is going to be a tough winter...

Monday, November 13, 2006

London #1





Posting some photos from London. Will get the "stars" ones out soon!

cheers, j

carrefour rocks!

Yes, Carrefour, the French supermart absolutely rocks ^_^ Going to Carrefour for us deprived people over here is like going for an outing, rain or shine...lolz ... Finally last Sat, we went to Carrefour, and the French ppl who came along declared us to be in France. *laughs* I guess it's like the Amerians with Cosco (I have seen it too, believe me!). I wonder what would make M'sians like that, perhaps mamak stores? LOL

Back to the subject of Saturday. Well, we got dinner there(two whole chickens!), red wine, cider, and my French friend Joan got his ingredients for a French dessert! He made us a Bordeaux speciality, something similar to the tarte tartin. It tasted great, but he forgot the whipped cream!!!!

So we had loads of fun, cooking, eating, and we even ended the evening with poker, ha! Was my first time, it was loads fun. Next weekend I want to go for karaoke, and we've got another dinner lined up already...hohoho...

moral of d story? Great fun, but yours truly fears that she has put on just a bit of weight from that night..... (I can imagine reactions now...)