fears

Song in my head: Come, Now is the Time to Worship

Fears. Everybody has them, unless you're a God... but I highly doubt that anybody would dare claim such a position, unless you're insane, in that case, be my guest.

I have so many fears that I fear that I would not be able to count them. What's at the top of my list? Surviving. At this stage, getting through each day takes a lot of my strength. Sometimes I just wish I can drop everything and not do anything again(but then, might get bored!). Life's responsibilities are so heavy that at times, I can physically feel its weight on my shoulders. Talk about heavy-duty!

Everyday I am afraid that I will fail my classes, lose my language skills, lose friends, end up lonely till old age.... Times like these are torturous. Deciding to wallow in my depressing state, I will just sit in a corner and cry. You may wonder that this does not sound like me at all, but of late, I have discovered that I am no longer the strong person I was. I am human, and I am tired.

More reason to seek God now. It is time to pray.