lost...

How does one gets over heartbreaks?
How does one become whole again?

It's only been a week since I broke up with my boyfriend, but it feels ages, yet the pain fresh. How weird! I don't really know how I should be, how I should act. Sometimes I feel so lost, sometimes all I can do is just sit down and think about the times we spent together, and it makes me miss him so much. Deep down I know that is not the right thing to do, but that is the only thing that I seem to be so good in doing at the moment. Argh, what a mess!

*sobs*

emotionally insane

maybe i am, maybe i really am illogical and out of my mind. maybe i'm demanding, maybe i'm such a horrible person who is so dictative, maybe i am so emotional that i can't seperate what is urgent and not urgent. the list can just go on but i am JUST TOO emotional to write!

Your Honour...

I hope it never comes to that, but it might be possible. Our "gracious" landlady has refused to negociate even a bit, and has "suggested" that we talk to her lawyer. Well, the school is going to do that, if our lawyer tells us that we have a strong case (meeting scheduled for the 7th). For all ye law students out there, this is a chance to follow a potential court case on tenant law in Japan...

On the other hand, things have started to perk up, after I've hit rock bottom I can't go anymore lower than that. I've found a new place to move into, and will officially move on the 10th. My exams are almost done, only Hebrew to go! So happy that I'm done with my social survey pratical class, Arabic, Italian and French! Dear Lord, what was I thinking? And I most probably need to do German too next term... oh yes, I'm going home in two weeks' time, CNY here I come! Started job-hunting too, in and out of Japan. Got to be frank, if I can work in Europe, I might just do it since Japan is really not my favourite place to be at the moment. (Yes coming from me it must be quite shocking but people change, end of story.)

Well, that's the update for now. Not really up for elaborating. Things are going well, but I must say my mental and emotional health has taken quite a tumble that I've gone quite weepy lately. urgh... From handyman Jo to weepy Jo. What is this world coming to?!